It was Friendship Day ffs

Checklist to not enjoy friendship day (I stay in hostel :3) :

  1. Wake up late in afternoon, because no one wants to wake you up, because nobody likes you.
  2. Got to wash your face and see your long lost neighbor.
  3. Get Brush and Paste, afterall they are friends and they stay together.
  4. Take Guitar and start practicing to listen how you are disturbing the person in next room and his friends in his room.
  5. Wait till last 5 min for lunch, and go lone for lunch. Sit alone among all the 160 benches of 8 seaters, each being occupied by a group of friends you know but don’t know whether they know you…
  6. While coming back, get ignored from past neighbor roommate as if you are a stranger.
  7. Come back to room to see all locked up rooms in corridor because all planned to go outside. Oh that’s why there was a meet I wasn’t invited to.
  8. Spend the rest of the time in room watching movies, playing games etc etc.
  9. Hear sound in corridor, open door just to get ignored, and get to know that your wing mates went outside for a movie and lunch.
  10. Go back and start doing where I left, i.e., wasting time.
  11. Go to have few snacks, get to know that today was friendship day, and most of the people went outing with their friends.
  12. Go back to room. Cry. Regret coming to college. Regret staying way from family. Sober. Hated by everyone. Loved by no one.
  13. Go online, see a picture of your crush with his rumored boyfriend which you expected and wanted to be false every minute till now.
  14. Cry again. Throw tear bucket water outside window. Cry again.
  15. Sober of all this, go outside alone to bar. Take a beer. See everyone came with someone, and you have no one to talk. Cry. Drink beer. Drink another. Drink a third. A fourth. Vomit. Eat peanuts. Think what you are doing with your life.
  16. Come back to campus. Get back to your corridor to see none help a dizzy drunk friend (or just a peer).
  17. Go to bed. Call Mom. Tell her everything is fine. Tell here all good. Disconnect Call. Cry. Cry again. Fall asleep in between. Tired and not loved. Hated by all.
  18. A new day with similar routine, realize yesterday was friendship day. Continue regretting living a life like this….
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Long Hibernation

After a long time I’ve managed my mood to blog again. In this free time there were many things going on in my life. Many things making me feel depressed. Many things making one feel conscious about his/her future, feel bad on the wrong decisions made, feel guilty on doing not wanted things unknowingly, but most importantly feel delighted on how I have managed till here….

Life never goes the way we want it. If it goes, it isn’t life. Many things or should we call hurdles come along the way. Many tears are shred, many seconds are wasted. Not once could someone predict what would happen. All we could do is face it or at max if you are smart enough, be prepared for it. My teachers in college always said to me that I am not intelligent, but smart enough to score good marks. I really never understood that statement. But over the time when you see on what all happens, how dots occurred, you can connect the dots. After all dots can connected seeing backwards.

I basically f*cked up two of my semesters, when I could have taken any courses, by not taking right courses. I delayed few submissions by a period of months. I starved for food, or at least good food. Lived on dimes, lived without phone. More importantly lived through one of unpleasing moments of my life. Like all of your engineering is in front of your eyes, you couldn’t do what you decided to do when you came to college, you hate your discipline, people hate you, you started hating them, you end up being alone, lonely, scared, frightened of being end up as a psycho even after all this.

It doesn’t add up when you just live a life just for surviving in this all chaos. Finding a right meaning to live, not survive, well is difficult. I’ll now stop surviving for others and start living for myself. And try to blog daily. Afterall expressing few things from heart always makes one feel good, or to say amazing.

From Telephone to Social Media

In current technological world, survival without a computational device is very difficult. These computational devices have helped a lot for human mankind like Education, Research, Faster Computing, More organised data, Better lifestyle etc etc. And then comes portable computational devices which too have affected our lifestyle a lot. Let it be Mobile, Laptops or Tablets. Especially Mobiles. These tiny monstrous things connect us with the rest of the world. Let it be California or Moscow or Sydney, everywhere. Whats more interesting is the ability to exploit it by every possible way.

Telephones were the era when having one was far more luxurious than having a car at that time. Then came the idea of portability. So mobile telephones with a receiver, having huge battery with it was first commercially made available which allowed us to talk for 20 min wireless. Then came idea of putting a display into it. And then touch. Then flip. Then Qwerty keypad etc. etc. Our childhood went really awesome with Nokia, especially 1100.

Latest trend told the manufactures to stop after putting touch screen onto it, so that we have to pay less to innovators in mobile technology and usability. But at the same time social media was at full high. Zuckerberg was going to drop from Harvard and Hashtag was about to get a new usage.

Everyone want a good social life. Wild life. Beers, parties, outing, weed and all those. Life is western was about to take a revolution. Multi-Billion Dollar Ideas were being discussed in pub’s. Victoria Secret Models were emerging as something new. RAM was being increased from KB’s to MB’s and Macintosh was about to make a huge revolution into personal computers.

Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat, Orkut all were gearing up to change how a person lives, how he stays late, with whom he hang outs, where he goes and what he does. Basically these companies started to get into our lives. Actually we let them do it.

Making these social media accessible into something portable like mobile just revolutionized the way we live. To an extent where Privacy was not Private anymore. Where being Single was raising questions of being straight. Where not posting photo’s was saying that he/she was a jerk.

Currently Social Media has the largest impact on the majority of population. To such an extent that they can start a world war, or they can put a war to rest, just by sitting in their office with a click on computer. These giants control how a person lives, eats, drinks, breathes etc.

Some utilized a variety of ways to do good to society from it. Some succeed. Some didn’t. But many more big companies did turn up. Thanks to social media. This started to expand themselves to other fields too, giving tough competition to many other old tech giants. Ad-Words vs FB Ads. Call over Internet vs video calls on a touch. Posting a video online vs Going live online. Using filters on Instagram vs using #Hashtag on Twitter. A lot has changed. If utilized properly productivity of human mankind can increase to many folds. But thats not a person wants. Jealousy from  a person enjoying, then going themselves to a pub, posting a video with heinekens in a hand, showing all that you too are cool, now that is what is stopping human mankind to not see what all they can do with these things.

But there are few good things too. 500 days ago an Engineer left is work in silicon valley and decided to travel all world and make a 1 min V-Log of it and post daily on Facebook. Today after 500 days, he has more than around 1.5 million friends. Traveled all around the world. Inspired a lot of people. Bought the reality in front of the world. Well that is a person who utilized it in a proper way. Checkout is FB page here (https://www.facebook.com/nasdaily/)

Social media is a boon or bane no one really knows still. But we do know that it has influenced more people than any other person could do. Good thing about social media is we have information about any person right in our hand at a click of it. Bad thing about social media is we have information about any person right in our hand at a click of it. Mobile computational devices really did bring a revolution to human existence, but it did come at a cost and a lot of people don’t like it.

Internship’s Accuracy

Internships are really kind of a part time job (unless you are not getting paid), with a perk. The perk is if you screw up something, or didn’t do the work in time or properly, then no one will blame you. One can easily get over the mistakes he/she makes during the internship.

Recently I got a chance to be an Intern in one of largest Aluminium producing company. Being a mechanical engineer, it was not the best, but an average place to do an internship. Reason of grabbing this opportunity was my college forced me to, made it an evaluative component, made it mandatory for another big internship which will last for a semester and is too evaluative.

Coming back to the Aluminium Company; Doing Internships in a well established companies (factories) are always waste of time. First of all lack of new things to do, because all they do is maintain the machines, so will the interns do. Secondly lack of areas of research. Unlike someone like me who had dream’t of doing research, designing and building new tools, implementing new mechanisms, all I had to do was pick up a spanner and start tightening the bolts. Something what I didn’t think of.

But few things never really go well. The Industrial process to extrude alumina was all set over here along with machines. But there were many other fields where there was a lot of work to do. Example being like making or bringing computerized components/machines into the factories, maintaining servers, websites of the company, looking after the finances, bills purchase orders and lot more things, which are essential but not directly linked to the factory.

So doing internship over here as a Mechanical or Electrical Engineer over here doesn’t really make sense. But as a student of  degree Computer Science or Finance or Information Technology, this place can be of different level compared to others. They can get a better exposure to corporate world, they can do a really productive work and they can tryout lot of new things doing the same.

So a Factory doesn’t always mean a Mechanical Engineer’s work place. It also means there are lot of other people who are required and do work apart from Mechanical Engineers and have important works without which a company cannot run.

By the way I did my Internship under IT Department over here and working on an amazing project which is interesting and very useful to the company. Learn’t a lot of new thing along the way and saved a lot of bucks to company :/